Have been fantasising abt being on a beach a lot lately...
how i love the sand....
sometimes i have this irrisistable craving to roll in the soft sand...
to hold it in my hand and feel it slip through my fingers..... ummmmmmm ......
the smell of the dust as it slips out of my hand.... can almost taste it....
the feel of the soft sand under my feet....
n water feels so much nicer after having played in the sand....
just thinkin abt it feels so good... makes the craving worse....
n here I am.... miles n miles away from a beach.... :(
you must think im crazy.... well... i never denied that.... :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
$$$$$$$$$
Spent a fortune on shopping this weekend.... my cousin's getting married next month so me n mom needed quite a few dresses for the different occasions... plus a SALE was on.... so how could we not pick up more than we actually need? :)
so its back to zero for my bank balance.... but im not really bothered... it bothers me that im not bothered... logically i should be... but im just happy spending... ofcourse now i hav to wait for the next salary before i can spend again.... but what the hell... it was worth it.... I know what ur thinking.... poor guy who ends up with her... he he he... i think i agree.... :)
sometimes i wonder what would i do if he turns out to be a big kanjoos(miser)? cause i love spending... dont think i could survive with someone who doesnt understand that.... i think i get the trait from my dad.... either he will not go shopping or he will end up spending a fortune just like me... :) so i can blame my dna for this i guess.... :)
wonder how people manage to save up... all that money just lying in ur bank account... doesnt it tempt you to spend.... the only way i can save money is if i invest in something like mutual funds... that way i dont really 'have' the money so cant really spend it..... hmmmm... better start thinking about it nidhi... naaaaah... maybe another day.... :)
so its back to zero for my bank balance.... but im not really bothered... it bothers me that im not bothered... logically i should be... but im just happy spending... ofcourse now i hav to wait for the next salary before i can spend again.... but what the hell... it was worth it.... I know what ur thinking.... poor guy who ends up with her... he he he... i think i agree.... :)
sometimes i wonder what would i do if he turns out to be a big kanjoos(miser)? cause i love spending... dont think i could survive with someone who doesnt understand that.... i think i get the trait from my dad.... either he will not go shopping or he will end up spending a fortune just like me... :) so i can blame my dna for this i guess.... :)
wonder how people manage to save up... all that money just lying in ur bank account... doesnt it tempt you to spend.... the only way i can save money is if i invest in something like mutual funds... that way i dont really 'have' the money so cant really spend it..... hmmmm... better start thinking about it nidhi... naaaaah... maybe another day.... :)
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Beautiful...
bbye winters.... hello pleasant weather... :) feels gr8 to be alive.... to breathe the fresh spring air... to finally get rid of layers and layers of warm clothes... its liberating... and the flowers... wow - they're just breathtakingly beautiful... in the most excusite of colours...dark dark wine reds.. deep violets.. beautiful puples, pretty baby pinks, bright fuschias, lovely yellows, glowing oranges.... sigh... all just so beautiful
but everything has a downside right... and the downside to this gr8 weather is a total and complete reluctance to work... feel like lazing around outside in the sun all day... taking in the beauty of the sky.. the grass the trees... the flowers... and the occasional handsom hunk... though those are pretty rare around here :)
This weather takes me back to the carefree days of college - when we could sit for hours on end doin nothing - absolutely nothing :) what days.. sigh... when we could just bunk classes cause the weather was amazingly romantic.. :)
where art thou my love? how i wish u were here with me.... u n me and the sexy weather... and coffee.....sigh.... :)
but everything has a downside right... and the downside to this gr8 weather is a total and complete reluctance to work... feel like lazing around outside in the sun all day... taking in the beauty of the sky.. the grass the trees... the flowers... and the occasional handsom hunk... though those are pretty rare around here :)
This weather takes me back to the carefree days of college - when we could sit for hours on end doin nothing - absolutely nothing :) what days.. sigh... when we could just bunk classes cause the weather was amazingly romantic.. :)
where art thou my love? how i wish u were here with me.... u n me and the sexy weather... and coffee.....sigh.... :)
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Appraisal Time.....
Its that time of the year again.... when ur made to beleive that what you think of yourself and your work matters.... that the company cares about your growth and your aspirations.... :) ya right.... the whole process of self appraisals is a farce.... at the end - u will get the rating ur manager has decided for you.... or worse - you may get an even lower rating if the company is not making enough profit....
And still - all of us invest so much time in filling out these self appraisal forms.... maybe its because we like to fool ourselves into beleiving that what we think matters.... and then u cant give up without trying can u? There is one upside to this excercise though - it lets us appreciate ourselves... well if the manager doesnt someone shud... right?
So I filled out my self appraisal form yesterday... and in typical s/w engineer style, it was a copy paste and edit of last year's form :) It was fun chosing just the right words to say im really good without sounding too snobish....Well i've done my bit... lets see what the manager has to say.... but hes gonna make me wait a good 2 months before the final verdict is given out.... :P i hate waiting....specially when its about how much of an increment im gonna get... :)
Increment / hike are happy words arn't they... although with each hike all that increases is my income tax - the take home doesnt really move up all that much.... they should make me the finance minister - atleast the salaried folks would love me :) if im earning x amount, is it really fair that i should have to give up 30% of X to the government? in effect - if i work for 30 days - i only get paid for about 20..... now how is that fair? we need sumone radical in the finance ministry... so how abt me... :) Mr. PM u listening?? :)
And still - all of us invest so much time in filling out these self appraisal forms.... maybe its because we like to fool ourselves into beleiving that what we think matters.... and then u cant give up without trying can u? There is one upside to this excercise though - it lets us appreciate ourselves... well if the manager doesnt someone shud... right?
So I filled out my self appraisal form yesterday... and in typical s/w engineer style, it was a copy paste and edit of last year's form :) It was fun chosing just the right words to say im really good without sounding too snobish....Well i've done my bit... lets see what the manager has to say.... but hes gonna make me wait a good 2 months before the final verdict is given out.... :P i hate waiting....specially when its about how much of an increment im gonna get... :)
Increment / hike are happy words arn't they... although with each hike all that increases is my income tax - the take home doesnt really move up all that much.... they should make me the finance minister - atleast the salaried folks would love me :) if im earning x amount, is it really fair that i should have to give up 30% of X to the government? in effect - if i work for 30 days - i only get paid for about 20..... now how is that fair? we need sumone radical in the finance ministry... so how abt me... :) Mr. PM u listening?? :)
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Confusion...
People are just so confused.... i've never understood it - and that means a lot coming from me since i can be confused at times too... like i find it really hard to decide what to pick from a menu.. or which pullover i should buy.... but atleast im confused about the little things in life... not the more important things like which job i want to do and which guy i want to be with...
This friend of mine called me one morning - she was in a state of breakdown... she's caught in a complicated relationship (well complicated is kinda n understatement) the tension had gotten to her.. to the point that it looked to me like she was having a fit... n i was scared.. wanted to take her to a doctor but she wudnt listen.... it took an hour or more of talking to her... listening to her curse the guy (he deserves it) before she finally calmed down. she wanted to kill him - didnt want to see his face again.... It looked like she had pretty much made up her mind that she wanted him out of her life.... and then that same afternoon - there she was again - calling him up and telling me that she cudnt live without him.... girl decide.... what was i supposed to do? help her get rid of him? help her get him back? I decided to stay out of it.... n i think thats the wisest thing to do here...
But it got me thinking... about inertia - yes newtons first law applies to relationships as well... people dont get along but stick to each other because its familiar... n no one else is around to replace their partners. And like newton said... a body in rest or state of uniform motion will continue to remain in rest or state of uniform motion unless an external force acts on it... so if there's no "external force" or third person, people tend to hang on to relationships... but really how good is that? if i was in my friends position, i would have gotten rid of the guy long ago... but the decision is hers to make not mine...
my problem is that other people's problems effect me - i dont want them to but they do.... infact i think i handle my own problems much better... cause i can do something about my own problems... with other people all i can do is worry.... Any solutions?
This friend of mine called me one morning - she was in a state of breakdown... she's caught in a complicated relationship (well complicated is kinda n understatement) the tension had gotten to her.. to the point that it looked to me like she was having a fit... n i was scared.. wanted to take her to a doctor but she wudnt listen.... it took an hour or more of talking to her... listening to her curse the guy (he deserves it) before she finally calmed down. she wanted to kill him - didnt want to see his face again.... It looked like she had pretty much made up her mind that she wanted him out of her life.... and then that same afternoon - there she was again - calling him up and telling me that she cudnt live without him.... girl decide.... what was i supposed to do? help her get rid of him? help her get him back? I decided to stay out of it.... n i think thats the wisest thing to do here...
But it got me thinking... about inertia - yes newtons first law applies to relationships as well... people dont get along but stick to each other because its familiar... n no one else is around to replace their partners. And like newton said... a body in rest or state of uniform motion will continue to remain in rest or state of uniform motion unless an external force acts on it... so if there's no "external force" or third person, people tend to hang on to relationships... but really how good is that? if i was in my friends position, i would have gotten rid of the guy long ago... but the decision is hers to make not mine...
my problem is that other people's problems effect me - i dont want them to but they do.... infact i think i handle my own problems much better... cause i can do something about my own problems... with other people all i can do is worry.... Any solutions?
Monday, January 15, 2007
Temptations....
Theres always that one thing u cant have..... thats just out of reach.... the forbidden apple....
i remember the time when i was 3 or 4 years old.... mom would keep all the pretty bottles just out of reach... so i wudnt break them.... i had such a facination for those pretty perfume bottles and the nailpaint bottles in so many colours..... even to date im fascinated by the pretty bottles..... have loads of them arranged neatly in my room....
Then arnd the time i turned 8.... i wanted to learn dance.... wanted to feel the thrill of performing on stage.... did do a few dances in school.... but dad was never cool abt it..... so cudnt join dance classes.... but that didnt stop me from dancing.... used to put on some music wear my favourite top n dance in my room....... even now..... i love to take a shower with the music on.... it feels like dancing naked in the rain..... always cheers me up....
oh n chocolates.... i know it will sound hard to believe but i didnt hav chocolates untill i was 13.... everytime i had a chocolate, i wud come down with a sore throat n fever.... so while all my friends were busy fighting over chocolates... i had to contend with just an occasional coffee bite or two.... anyone who knows me today knows i luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv chocolate... in any form... anytime... anywhere... its one temptation I just cant resist.... after all i hav 13 long years without chocolate to make up for..... :)
n at 16..... obviously it was guys.... there was a guy i used to have a big crush on.... n never found the courage to go up n tell him that.... specially since i knew he had the hots for a classmate of ours.... n the guy i did have... i didnt really want... he was just there by default.. so obviously we broke up.... but at the end of the day - im glad it turned out the way it did... now i hav a boyfriend I absolutely adore n wanna spend the rest of my life with... n i wudnt trade him for anyone in the world...
But the point is - that at each point in our lives - there is that one thing that we can't have... and that makes us want it all the more... theres always a carrot out there calling out to us rabbits... :) the ones who are lucky manage to steal a few....
But i guess that temptation is essential in life... gives us something to dream abt... something to work towards... we may or may not end up getting what we want... but atleast we can enjoy the dreams while they last....
so heres to temptation ..... :)
i remember the time when i was 3 or 4 years old.... mom would keep all the pretty bottles just out of reach... so i wudnt break them.... i had such a facination for those pretty perfume bottles and the nailpaint bottles in so many colours..... even to date im fascinated by the pretty bottles..... have loads of them arranged neatly in my room....
Then arnd the time i turned 8.... i wanted to learn dance.... wanted to feel the thrill of performing on stage.... did do a few dances in school.... but dad was never cool abt it..... so cudnt join dance classes.... but that didnt stop me from dancing.... used to put on some music wear my favourite top n dance in my room....... even now..... i love to take a shower with the music on.... it feels like dancing naked in the rain..... always cheers me up....
oh n chocolates.... i know it will sound hard to believe but i didnt hav chocolates untill i was 13.... everytime i had a chocolate, i wud come down with a sore throat n fever.... so while all my friends were busy fighting over chocolates... i had to contend with just an occasional coffee bite or two.... anyone who knows me today knows i luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv chocolate... in any form... anytime... anywhere... its one temptation I just cant resist.... after all i hav 13 long years without chocolate to make up for..... :)
n at 16..... obviously it was guys.... there was a guy i used to have a big crush on.... n never found the courage to go up n tell him that.... specially since i knew he had the hots for a classmate of ours.... n the guy i did have... i didnt really want... he was just there by default.. so obviously we broke up.... but at the end of the day - im glad it turned out the way it did... now i hav a boyfriend I absolutely adore n wanna spend the rest of my life with... n i wudnt trade him for anyone in the world...
But the point is - that at each point in our lives - there is that one thing that we can't have... and that makes us want it all the more... theres always a carrot out there calling out to us rabbits... :) the ones who are lucky manage to steal a few....
But i guess that temptation is essential in life... gives us something to dream abt... something to work towards... we may or may not end up getting what we want... but atleast we can enjoy the dreams while they last....
so heres to temptation ..... :)
Sunday, January 14, 2007
No. 1 !!!
Here's blog no. 1.... :)
Have been reading blogs for quite some time now but didnt hav the time or the inspiration to start my own.... im a s/w engineer.... n like all s/w engineers.... had a some free time today all of a sudden after a period of immense work....
n this feeling that i wanted to write.... not yet sure abt what.... but something - anything - everything..... so here i am....
Have been reading blogs for quite some time now but didnt hav the time or the inspiration to start my own.... im a s/w engineer.... n like all s/w engineers.... had a some free time today all of a sudden after a period of immense work....
n this feeling that i wanted to write.... not yet sure abt what.... but something - anything - everything..... so here i am....
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